I feel like it’s been a century since I last wrote something here or wrote anything for that matter. I wanted to write a yearender post at the beginning of the year, but my mind wasn’t ready for it. So instead, I decided I’d try and give you a little life update. “Try” being the operative word. It took me five attempts to compose this, and bless my soul if I ever hit that publish button. If you’re here reading this, well, I guess I deserve a pat on the back. Let’s catch up, shall we?
Going through a huge hurdle in the beginning of the year was tough. I welcomed the new year with high hopes and a fresh start, only to be dragged down the pit 18 days later. I tried to keep myself busy; if only to conceal the longing I have inside. I got too busy, that at some point, I felt like it was draining the life out of me.
On the outside, It seems like I’m okay and that I have fully adjusted to the “new normal”. But inside, I know something in me will never be the same. I lost a part of me that I know I’ll never get back. They say people who laugh and smile a lot are the saddest people. I never really truly understood that, until one day, I found myself smiling through the palpable pain. It may not be true all the time, but at the moment, it is my reality. Most days, I wake up, smile, and just hope for the best.
I am all over the place, I know, but I am far from being cynical. I still have a life ahead of me. So here I am, slowly trying to get back on track. After all, it’s only been six months since I lost my sister.Read More »
2016 was all sorts of crazy for me and it wasn’t an easy feat. There were a lot of challenges and roadblocks along the way – each of them pushed me to my limits and made me question every decision I made. But in retrospect, I would say it was one of my best years yet.
On my personal life
They say all wounds heal in God’s time and I couldn’t agree more. 2016 was my year of healing. I have made a lot of failed decisions in the past. I’ve done things that did not only hurt other people, but myself as well. I wasRead More »
I wasn’t planning on writing a year-ender post, but there’s still an hour left before the clock strikes 12 o’clock – I’m bored and got nothing to do. So I thought I’d join the bandwagon before we usher in the new year.