Warning! Emotional dump ahead!
Going through a huge hurdle in the beginning of the year was tough. I welcomed the new year with high hopes and a fresh start, only to be dragged down the pit 18 days later. I tried to keep myself busy; if only to conceal the longing I have inside. I got too busy, that at some point, I felt like it was draining the life out of me.
On the outside, It seems like I’m okay and that I have fully adjusted to the “new normal”. But inside, I know something in me will never be the same. I lost a part of me that I know I’ll never get back. They say people who laugh and smile a lot are the saddest people. I never really truly understood that, until one day, I found myself smiling through the palpable pain. It may not be true all the time, but at the moment, it is my reality. Most days, I wake up, smile, and just hope for the best.
I am all over the place, I know, but I am far from being cynical. I still have a life ahead of me. So here I am, slowly trying to get back on track. After all, it’s only been six months since I lost my sister.Read More »